Saturday 17 May 2014

LIKE FATHER, LIKE SON
 Stephan C. Hmar, Agartala, 14.05.2014


My father said that his father (my grandfather) was the second or third earliest believer  among  us. Separations left him alone, he stayed with his belief, his God, and did not follow any of his colleagues that fluttered like chaffs in the wind of changes. He was faithful to his original Mission.

He said he was one of the earliest mission pensioners of our original Mission….

I said to myself, “Oh! Another story….. Dad! Give me a break!! ”

My father could study my thoughts from my looks, that I am most interested in the unknown, the delights or the tears it brings. So, he deliberately changed his topic, and started speaking about the unreality of the unknown, in a way I could understand and stay awake.

I arranged my pillow, straightened my neck. My ears started to grow bigger.
He took a deep breath and continued…..

That was during 1910 through 1912. People heard the story of the son of God from missionaries and started giving up their regular ritual of slaughtering animals to pacify spirits. As the spirits knew they were fighting a loosing battle, they attacked the new believers in their most violent ways. It was the time when spirits physically fought the new believers.

One evening, he said, my grandfather was walking along a deserted road in the village with the Bible in his hand. (It was a practice, then, for the new believers, to carry a Bible, as spirits confronted them anywhere). He saw a dark shadowed faceless form approaching from the opposite direction. He, at once, knew it was an evil spirit, but he kept on walking advising himself not to be scared. When they met in the middle of the road, the faceless form grabbed my grandfather on the chest, put the smelly black leg  against him and pushed him. My grandfather was thrown backward. The whole space was filled with nasty, irritating smell. He held back his ground fearlessly and looked around for the faceless, smelly form.  But, like the quickness of a lightning, it had disappeared right under that opened sights and spaces in that half-dark evening.

My father said, “That was the story of your grandfather as told by himself! You see! Believe in God, and don’t look back and even evil spirit will not be able to harm you. They will disappear in thin air….”

He told me that the only thing that remained in his childhood home was poverty.  They depended on the seasonal jhuming farm (where they grow rice and crops) on the slopes of hills in those thickly forested landscapes, far away from the village. The success or failure of the farm depended on the unpredictable monsoon.

The first time when he went to their jhum farm alone, he was 15 years old. It was nearing the harvest season, and he needed to keep guard of paddy and crops from wild animals.

The sky was moonless and he was in the farm hut, making fire, to chase away wild animals. The fire made a reddish sphere, enveloped by an unimaginable darkness, in the middle of nowhere, far far away from the village.  The reddish sphere blinded his eyes to see anything across the swaying paddy field. He looked out across the darkness. He could see one big man approaching the hut. He could not believe his eyes. He rubbed them and looked at it again. The approaching man was bigger and walking faster.

Quickly he put off  the fire, and stayed quietly in the darkness, trying to notice any sound of footsteps. There was no sound, except the sound of the swaying paddy field. He peeked through  the window again. Still, he could see the man approaching. He was almost scared to death. He hid behind the thatched wall.  

He was enveloped by the eternity of fear of the unknown man. He knew he was going to die anyway and a thought came that he must prove the man that was going to kill him.

He then took his slingshot and shot at the approaching man. No sound, except the  sound of the sling stone over the field. He  shot him maybe five, six times. He was still approaching him.

Then, my father took his big knife, walked out of the hut and approached the approaching death. He walked nearer, the man too, walked nearer. When my father came face to face with him, he cut the man right on the neck.

Then, there was this strange knock in his head, knocking him back to senses.

He said when he came back to sense, he realized that he cut the half burnt tree right in the middle of the field.

And then he looked at me, and said, “You see! Don’t be scared. Move forward. Things may appear big, difficult, scary or deadly. If you sum up your bravery and courage, they will be as timid as that half burnt tree, which I mistook for approaching man.”

He would tell me, not of the tribes unrealistic folklore or myth, but of his own experiences in flesh and blood. And he would try to hand over me the morals linked to each of them.

Handed over the morals from his experience?

That was what bored my innocent mind. From my kindergarten to class X (the time when I was with him) in that sweet hometown was filled with tales from him---from the Bible, from his father, his childhood adversities and more.  I was fed-up, to be filled with tales of morals and I was ready to explode like a balloon.

More and more, I wanted to run away from his known morality. I don’t want to live in his shadow. I don’t want to live a borrowed life. Why can't I live a free life as I wish?

I tried running away from his life and from him to mine. I really tried hard! But the more I ran into mine, I see his life in me. His moralities were induced in me. Perhaps, that could be why I don’t seem to give much attention to my own. At times, it seems I am not living for myself, but just for his moralities.

Was my father doing so wrong, to his son by telling him everything, so that I will tell those stories to other people? Indeed, he wronged, and left me empty. He left me empty like a barrel filled with his stories. He left me not having any story of my own.  

Today I am telling some of the stories in brief, but it took my father 70 years to experience them and 10 years to tell them to me to the smallest details and particulars. And today, against my will, those stories let me say out the thing I had never liked to say: My father is the greatest story teller to me.

I am going to be forty years old now. My father died six years ago. I could not go to his funeral even. Death took him away from me. Today, long after my father is gone, I began to know the greatness of my father as a story teller. My father must have suffered so many awfully great things in his life and in his later stage, has something to tell me. He had left me with plenty, of course, plenty of stories that I don’t have any of my own to write----only his.
THE END






A Babel Story for the Real Babels?

Last month for one long week I had a strange headache, not that kind of headache that would get all right by popping Stopache or Sinarest tablets.

The headache started dramatically from the different sounds I heard. First, those sounds itched my ear lobes, and then vibrated my eardrums and the electrical waves that travelled through my brain produced that headache.

The pain was severe. Considering only the pain, It was serious enough to consult a medicine doctor. But I knew the doctor (after knowing the reason) would refer me to a psychiatrist, who would in turn refer me to a neurologist, who in turn would say that I have a unique headache, and would, in turn, refer me to doctors of outside state.    

That was the only reason why I did not consult a doctor. No one wants to look foolish, you know!!

Huuusssshh! Why do I remember that headache-week, only now? Flop-things should be forgotten…isn't it?

But as I had already started, I better finish it. It is always better, way better to finish what we start.

And here, the story of the headache goes.....

Last month was very hectic for me: Office works, everyday household problems, problems relating to far-ones, etc. piled up. It was very hard and dull to carry on unless you take a leave to set them aside. So I took one week’s leave, with a station leave permission.

I then visited the native side of the state to meet my own people who have a short, blunt nose like mine; narrowed eyes, short stout legs; who also eat my favourite Sodium bicarbonate (soda) curries, smelly fermented fish, fermented pork fats; who would not think even for another second to eat anything that crawls and fly in the sky.  

My whole eagerness could be noted down in one sentence: No place is better than the land of similarity, where even differences come out from this similarity. 

I was eager like a child going to his favourite toy shops, where he will get his heart’s other half.

First, I went to my good Kokborok friend. He had been such a good friend (mainly because we could share thoughts with each other in English) and I wanted to say hi!, to his family. My friend had informed me through the phone he would not be home because of official duty, and that I could see them in his absence and it would not make any difference. 

He was wrong…..

I knocked the door, an old woman opened the door. I said, "Mami, hum Stephan, tera larka ka dost, milne ke liye aia," with my sweetest smiles.

She looked startled, not understanding, not smiling, with noticeable headache. After staring at me like an alien, she said, "Phai-di! Phai-di!"

I thought she was talking about a big flat land somewhere. Phai, in my Hmar dialect means a flat land.

I still tried my best. I switched on to my dialect with action, like a man singing action song. "Kei ka hming Setefan! In naupa ruolpa..I hriet am ka trawng?" (My name is Stephan, a friend of your son. Can you understand my language?)

She had a perfect headache then. My sound triggered her earlobes, and then the eardrums and then the brain, which, at last, attacked her skull.

She said, "Maya!Maya!," and then she looked at me with an interrogatiive expression, "Ani kok bujiya?"(Do you understand our language?)

The only words that created senses in my head was the words Maya!Maya! I read somewhere! Maya reads something like illusion. (I found later on, what she meant was "I don’t know! I don't know!")

Then the symptom of headache started on me, too. My earlobes itch, and then vibrated and the sound waves attacked my head.

I tried, still, at my level best. "Hindi samasta?

"Phaidi! Phaidi!," (come!come!) and she pointed towards the chair.

The next minute, father came, we shook hands, all family members came to meet me, we all shook hands. We all smiled (or tried to smile) with our sweetest smiles and talked to each other in sign language, like deaf people. 

I was a horrible situation. It was the widest gap in the whole universe between two people who wanted to be so close---We don’t understand each other.  

I went out of the house, exceedingly used, without understanding anything.

I just started my holiday inning, and it started with a terrible headache. Would I go back home and cancel my leave? I thought.

I had known Halam tribe years ago. I also knew from someone that they claimed themselves to come from mountain road, and thus called themselves Halam, just like my tribe Hmar, who called ourselves as people coming from North.

I wanted to give a next try. I visited my other good Halam friend.

This time my approach was different. I did not talk with the family, I asked my friend to teach me Halam dialect first.

Bu I fak ta? (Do you take your food?)
Bu maw na nek zai?

It sounded like Hmar olden songs.

Kan trawng I hriet ? (Do you understand our dialect?)
Kan chong na riet maw?

What a similarity!, to create such difference!

Ka hriet nawh. (I don’t know)
Riet naing.

He said there are 19 Halam sub-tribe, having a slight different dialect, then Debbarma, Tripuri, Reang, Jamatia, Chakma, Garo, Kuki. Maybe more.

"Oh!" I said, "What a headache to have different dialects when language is the only instrument to express emotions."

He bowed.

I said that everywhere we are the same. In my home place, there are the Hmars, the Paite, the Kukis, the Zos, the Gangtes, the Lushais, the Simtes. I don’t know all…

And then I said, "English is not just a trend! It is a way to unifying us."
I had head ached more to say that! The story of the tower of Babel from the Bible came to my mind. And then more headache.

God came to see their city and the tower they were building. He perceived their intentions, and in His infinite wisdom, He knew this "stairway to heaven" would only lead the people away from God. He noted the powerful force within their unity of purpose. As a result, God confused their language, causing them to speak different languages so they would not understand each other. By doing this, God thwarted their plans. He also scattered the people of the city all over the face of the earth.

Today, I wonder, why is God so artistic in making us speak different dialects?

All my brothers and sisters are different only for one thing---dialects. I am as strange to them as much as they are strange to me.  The more I wanted to be with them, more headache for me, and more headache for them, too!

Next holiday, I will try to find the cure for my headache, in my own dialect!

Salah!





Friday 16 May 2014

!!!BAD DAY MICRO-OBSERVER!!!
Stephan C.Hmar, Agartala, 16.05.2014

Today was a vote counting day for the 2014 Lok Sabha Election. Some friends and I were appointed as a counting micro-observer here in Agartala. It was in connection with our appointment as micro-observer for the election held on 7th April, last month.

As promised by the Election department, a pick-up bus with a big writing Swaraj Majda was sent to the main gate of our residential complex at 5AM sharp, this morning.

I boarded the pick-up bus around 5:30AM. Soon after all the other appointed counting micro-observers took their respective seats, the engine started. Then, as odd as I was, I realized I forgot my I-Card, without which  entering the counting hall was not possible. Panickly, I shouted, mera I-Card bul gya, and I climbed down the bus, telling the driver to keep on driving and waited for me by the other gate, close to my quarter.

I retraced back to my quarter hurriedly. My wife quickly gave me the yellow I-Card. Without checking its authenticity I hurried back to the bus.

We reached the counting place, Umakanta Academy, at 6:15 AM. It was already crowded. The day-labourers distributed three cards---tea, breakfast and lunch cards. We quickly exhausted the validity of the first two cards---tea and breakfast---by eating one boiled egg, one cup tea, two roti and sabji, and a banana.

Then we queued up through the entrance, where tall CRPFs stood with their long rifles and AK-47s, scanning each one thoroughly. They let everyone leave their mobile phones, wallets, watches, and belts in the collection room. My turn for scanning came. I passed the test. But my I-Card was different from the rest. The CRPF asked what I-Card it was. When I checked it, it was that I-Card issued to me on that election day, 7th April, 2014 valid for the day 7th April, 2014. (Why is the election department so colour deficient. They could have choose a different colour for election day and counting day. Why yellow always. For example, they could have choose white and black, red or yellow, why yellow all along? That was my angry thought).  There was no way to squeeze in forcefully or to bargain.

So, I rushed back home by hiring an auto, got the authentic I-Card and rushed back to the counting hall. Everyone had entered the hall by now. I told the CRPF gatekeeper, mera I-Card bul giya, isliye late huong. He said, chinta mat karna, aap mara saat haai. After parting with my phone, wallet and watch, I climbed up the stairs and entered my assigned hall---hall number 4. I looked for my assigned table against my name. It was written:

Stephan C. Hmar, AAO, A.G. (Audit) ----------RESERVE.

I asked the Assistant Returning Officer (ARO) what it meant. He said that I was reserved and would be called when needed. He pointed towards the chairs where 7 to 10 other reserve guys had already taken their seats. We all wonder why the election commission appoints such an excess micro-observers, so as to have such a big reserves. We all thought it was a useless expenditures---from both sides. One reserved guy said, this is India.  

My mind said, what a fruitless task I was messing up with.

Counting started, but we, the reserved guys still sat there. My back hurts. My neck stiffened. The loudspeaker sounds deafened my ears. I walked out of my allotted room.

Whole day, we were cut off from the rest of the world. No phones. Had my phone been with me, I could talk to someone to lighten the situation. No watch. I did not know what time it was. I only knew it was longer than eternity. There was a small temporary shop where they sell paan, cakes and tea. But my purse with the money was in the collection room. I knew the far-ness of those eatables without money and thought how we would fill our stomach without money.

Maybe, having nothing to do, to be a reserved guy, in a cut-off place was boring. I walked up and down, up and down the school. And before I realized, I was looking at the smallest details of the airs, the scenery, the ponds and the grasses. Soon, while the political agents were busy noting down the numbers of votes cast for each party, I started writing down the things that were very much there, but having micro significance to all of us.

I said to myself, I am a micro-observer, am I not? I started to observe micro things.

Umakanta is a big school, way bigger than you would imagine to be in this small town, Agartala. It spread over a perfectly flatted land, measuring over 10 acres (about 40460 square meter area), maybe more. I am not good at estimating things. My only estimation is it is very big. The school takes the form of a big rectangle, with big ponds, and lawn in the middle. Walking along the corridor from one end to the other end is a tiresome attempt.

I noted down the names of the people on the hanging frames. The well-groomed Galileo Galilie (1564-1642), the spec-ky Stephen Hawking (1942-), the brownish black P.C. Roy (1861-1944), the kind-of familiar old face Madam Maria Montessori (1870-1947), Sukanta Bhattacharjee (1926-1947), Kaji Nazrul Islam (1844-1876) and many more names till I ran out of paper.

One man said to me, dada, muje paper dijega.. I did not reply him. First, I did not have paper. Second, I was not his dada, he looked over 100 years older than me. What did he see in me to call me dada?

Inside the room allotted to media people was a big TV, showing live NDTV: Narendra Modi-272, Rahul-55, Kejriwal-3. It was clustered by people. They always blocked my view. 

I went out again. After every 5 meter distance, stood tall CRPFs with guns. I was thinking about what they were thinking. Were they thinking only of who to shoot with their guns?

At 1:30 PM, I went to the lawn where they distribute lunch packs. I looked for my last card---the Lunch Card---but could not locate it. I checked, re-checked the whole five pockets I have on me, but it was no more. Oh! What a bad day. I had to quarrel with the day-labourers to get the lunch pack without the card.

Counting finished at 2 PM. And the announcer announced the votes polled for each candidate.

1. Mr So and so got 16000 votes
2. Mr So and so and so got 16002 votes
3. Mr So and so got 50 votes
4. Mr so and so got 4 votes
5. NOTA got 150 votes.

I said to myself, Oh! Dreams and realities could be so far yet so close, so close yet so far.

I went to collect my belongings---wallet, mobile, belt and watch. I looked into my wallet. O ho! It was empty. Quickly I realized that it was empty, penniless after paying that auto driver on my way back to collect the I-Card. Bad day! I tried switching on my mobile. It flickered once with a message---no battery, plug in a charger---and went dead.

From the road, I could see one ATM sign at a distance of about 100 meters. I walked towards it as withdrawing money for fare would be better than asking from friends. The May sun in Agartala is extremely hot. I walked under it, sweating and thirsty. I reached the ATM, at last, and insert my card and typed the amount. A message appeared:

 This ATM is temporarily out of service. Please go to the nearest ATM for    withdrawal.

Shit! Shit! The nearest ATM I knew could be about 300 meters far. I could not take it any more, I was so angry. I stood beneath the sun, looking at the sky and count 1 to 100.

I went back to the main gate of the counting hall, all my friends had left. I chewed my teeth, and walked 300 meters to the next ATM. I withdrew money and hired an auto to my quarter for 75 rupees. When we reached, I paid the driver 100 rupees note. He gave me 20 rupees change and asked for 5 rupees. I said I had none. He said he had neither. The only solution was to close the deal with 80 rupees. Loss = 5 rupees.

Wearily I walked to my quarter thinking only of laying flat on the bed. The door was locked. I did not have the key with me. I forgot the key in the morning.

Angry! Angrier! Angriest!

I went to my friend in the compound to use his phone to call my wife. He said, oh! So sorry, I just finished my balance calling my wife.

I went back and sat on my doorstep, waiting for my wife who would return from her office at 6 PM. Ants and caterpillars crawled on me, and my whole body itches.

My wife reached at 6:15 PM. I looked at her and I counted one to one hundred in Chinese. She asked whether I was tired. I said, keep quiet! Zip! Zip!

She opened the room, and I switched on the TV, Headlines today:
2014 Lok Sabha Election final result:
Info available: 543/543 seats.
NDA:339
UPA:56
AAP:4
Others:144

Current went off. Bull shit.


Saturday 10 May 2014

A PAINFREE MAN
Stephan C. Hmar

It was 12:00 in the night. Yes! It was already late. But then midnight robbers played well. 

Five robbers assaulted a lone man in one of the dark corners. It was so usual….. First, they took his wrist watch, and then his wallet. They were looking for a ring---finger-ring or neck ring---for it worth more in the choor market.

Annoyingly enough, their unlucky prey did not have any costly ring. And so they penalized him more by more punches.

Suddenly, a strange voice spoke from one corner, “Satisfied now? It’s my turn now!” The five men dumped their unforgivable prey by the dark and turned toward the voice.

The strange man walked out into the lights. He was tall in a strange robe beneath a cowboy hat. They could not see his face. He said, “Try to harm me in any way you can. If you succeed, you win. If you don’t, then take to your heel towards your respective home!”

He was polite, way too polite, you may feel! In fact, yes! An arrogant hero, who can bash up five robbers unmercifully, like in the movies, was the need of the time. But, as it turned out till then, he was one softly odd hero in one odd advanced hour of the night. Or one softly ghost…!

One of the robbers mocked him, “You think you’re a strong ghost that will scare the hell out of us. Disappear before we kick the shit out of you.”

The strange man said, “You are wrong, but you can try that…!”

The five thugs did not lose the chance. They hit, punched and kicked him up to the last atom of their energy. But the man still stood, painless. The stolen wrist watch has struck 1:00 AM already.

He said, “Retire! You have got yourselves exhausted without harming me a bit. Next thing could befall your worst nightmare!”

All the five robbers rushed away, panting, into the dark like household rats.
*****

Five years ago, Mr. Painfree set out for the fifty eight times to consult a doctor. For him, but then, it was very usual, hope capsized him unusually that day, yet again. Yes! It was unusual.

People whom he knew had said, “This doctor can do miracles.” (And perhaps Painfree was unusually hopeful of the miracles hovering about doctors).

He said to the doctor, “Don’t check me like your regular patient. These are my recent x-rays. And here are my recent sugar content, and then my cholesterol, and then my uric acid, my chest results, and whole abdomen ultrasound results…”

The doctor looked at him, surprised. He waved him towards the bunk bed and scrutinized him with his stethoscope.

Everything was normal for Painfree. As always.

The doctor did not say a word. He looked at him, this time quite unusual and said, submissively, “You are one rare case to live with all these pains. How could you live a normal life like this? You are one rare case.”

He did not prescribe medicine nor encouraged him. He was drawn more by the next patient.

Do not forget this, consultation charges attract doctors more than remedial!

Painfree walked out the consultation room, much burdened by the stenciled name of the doctor: Dr. Rare-ly, MBBS, MD, USA.

The following week was absurd. A cyclone hit his mind. “A very rare case!” This rareness depressed him. More weeks had passed on with more depression.

You see, when you are in a dark pit knowing that no one can help you out, you end up an addict. But you hardly know what. Like that addict that you were, Painfree too was unknowingly addicted.

From morning till dark, he would keep thinking beneath his pains. Unknowingly, he severely gets addicted to the dark side of the world, the hopelessness of life. And like any one of us would do at the end of that unpleasant tunnel, he resorted to find his own cure, by HIMSELF.

And you will find his next choice of direction quite strange.   

He broke his piggy bank, withdrew all his savings from the bank, sold his house and set out to the farthest village to find the answer for his rarest condition. There he set-up a laboratory, to venture into his unknown rareness and found the cure.  

For the whole year, he read and read books on anaesthesia. Soon, he learnt that even with the known chemistry, the door was marvellously wide opened to know how anaesthesia exactly works. He painstakingly worked for years (he couldn't remember), to come out with the right formula. He mixed carbon, oxygen, hydrogen and xenon in different proportions over and over again and drank each of the yielded solutions. 

You see! Solution-less life gives freedom. That was exactly what he did! No more fear of life or death! It looked like a good thing though. But wait till I tell you more on his outcome.

After three years and six months of his experiment, he yielded an orange-pink solution. He gulped it down soon enough for the thousandth times. It tasted the same like before. After 15 minutes, he collapsed on his laboratory floor, only to find himself alive the next morning. Magic happened with that waking: he was fit and well, no more pains in his body.

“Ah! The pain has gone.” He laughed out loud for the first time in many years. He ran about his laboratory, jumped up and down the desks, and broke the glasses until he accidentally cut his wrist with a razor sharp knife. But ah! No more pain. He felt the rubbing of the knife, the flowing of blood, but not the pain.

You see! It was not accidental nor a simple success. It was an experiment with a perfect success. With that single gulp of the orange-pink solution, he was painless for day, then weeks, and then years.

A painful man becoming painless, for years with one gulp of the solution? It was the most miraculous of miracles.

News spread like air in the village. People gave the name “Painfree.” Sick people came to him for the solution. Alas! He did not keep the note of his experimentations, nor did he remember the proportions of the elements. He could not recreate that unique solution. No more.

Soon, he was called a lair, a black magician, satanic, spell-caster, etc. His laboratory was burned down. He was put in confinement.

Let me tell you! When you cannot help when they expected the most, they messed you up.

Every night he was summoned by the Chief, asking him the god he worshipped: the ghostly spell that had cured him.
No answer satisfied the chief.

Strangeness has no limit and could come in any forms. You imagine the strangeness of pain amongst the painless, or the painless in the world of the pains? That was just the speck of the picture. Small though, his strange invention made him devilishly strange, so they expelled him from the village.  

And that was it! That was his whereabouts!
******

Painless pulled him up from the dark shadow; he was covered in bloods. He murmured, “Thank you,” and then he could feel himself in the air; the lights were flickering but real now, like a man well set from a perfect nightmare into the light. Like that unexpected sunshine after the storm…. 

On and on, he knew he was nearing his home, and the shoulder that carried him was tireless. The knocking door was quickly responded by his wife. She said, “Thank you…thank you, you are saviour!,” to the tall stranger.

Then she looked at her badly wounded husband, “Oh! What have they done to you? Heaven and hell be damned. They don’t care for any good soul. They don’t care anything….only selfishness.”
******

Painless knew about the extremities of life—from the pain to the painlessness, due to his experiment.  He felt he was a chapter from the beginning and the end.  Still then, he was odd, not fitting in the society. Painlessly he cried, “Alas! There is a limit to everything, but not knowledge. I saw people confined in the dreaminess of things, not looking the conscience. Not to the reality of knowledge.”

He looked at his unused money in the bag and he said, “Let me try to experiment a medicine for painless to pain. Hope it will ring a bell, at least.” 

THE END

                                                                                                                  

Thursday 1 May 2014

A LADY FROM THE WILD

When I switched on my laptop, on the desktop was written: This is a fiction. Any resemblance to the real life story of any person—dead or alive—is purely unintentional.

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MR. ADAMS carefully double locked his hotel room so that no one would come in. The timekeeper on the wall showed 3 A.M.

Restlessly, he walked around the room and switched on the hotel TV set.  The old TV roared. He hit the side of the TV with a hard force (as instructed by the hotel boy the night before) and the TV tuned in to crystal clear pictures and gentle voices. He sat on the sofa with the remote control in hand and listened to the splattering sounds of water in the attached bathroom.

He still wondered: Where did the lady come from? Would he report to the hotel manager? Would he be in danger, keeping her?

His mind was fighting with a thousand and one questions. And then he thought: It would be better to keep her safe in his room. He would ask her everything. Let him help her in all his capacities. Those positive thoughts calmed him down a little.

The bathroom’s door opened slowly. And she came out. Beneath her drenched hairs, she opened the eyes of an emerald, but drenched in fear and tiredness. Her nape and arms were fair, oddly blotted by deep thorn-marks, probably inflicted by jungle bushes. She wrapped around the hotel’s towel and he could see the perfect sleek legs, sculpted none other than by God. She was still shivering in fear and sat on the opposite wooden chair. She did not look at Adams, and with an apologetic act of trying to overcome hysteria, she looked at the walls.

Who will not be sorry to walk into the hotel room of an unknown man at 3 in the morning?

Destiny slaved human. And under its constant push, we cannot choose what we want or don’t. Sometimes destiny makes us weird and funny by putting us on a place where we would endlessly wander “why”? So was she!

Mr. Adams asked, “What is your name, lady?”

She answered with a dry throat, “Rebecca.” She nervously bit her dry lips and cowardly looked at the eyes of Adams. He passed her a water bottle and she drank like a child. Adams slowly rose from his seat, pulled out the spare blanket and gave it to her.

2
MR. ADAMS was a tall, handsome and a dandy bachelor. He had a smoky brown eyes stamped to perfection by his pointed nose. His friends used to say, “You have got that gene of a model.” He was interested in designer’s dresses, and most of his readings were about fashions. He rented a luxurious apartment in the city, full with brochures and catalogue of newly designed dresses, ready to get launched in the market. Parallel to his looks he was successful, too.

He completed his B. Tech at the age of 25 and had such a demanding credential that he was invited by many reputed companies. After weighing all the available options, he chose a job that would involve lots of traveling, to suit his inborn spirit. By nature, he would become irritated, restless when he confined in the same place for a week or two.  He was governed by his undying passion of seeing places, eating different foods, meeting cultures and people of different cities and villages. And that always governed his choices in life.  

He always carries a small notebook and would jot down his varied experiences. He believes in the saying, “Writing makes a man perfect.” Every time when he thinks about his future, he would see himself as an old man, sitting on a rusty chair, scribbling down his old adventures. He believed the time for perfection is “old age” and that is the time for writing. 

He did not believe in romance and love no more; he said he was badly built for any of them. While he was in class X, he had experienced some sort of feelings that could have been love. He had an untamable feeling for his classmate Lucy. That year coincides with the study of the poem “Lucy” by William Wordsworth in their English syllabus.

“SHE dwelt among the untrodden ways
Beside the springs of Dove,
A Maid whom there were none to praise
And very few to love…….


The young Adams memorized the whole poem for Lucy. Whenever he dictated the poem, Lucy would walk in his mind—her dimpled smiles, her slightly curly innocent hairs and her moon eyes. But Lucy was never aware of all this. She had her own likes, dislikes, desires and tastes, and Adams was certainly not in all of those. He was just not in her world. Just before the end of the final exam, he told her that he loves her. And the next second, Lucy slapped him, calling him, “You useless moron! Get lost.” After many years since that incident, what Adams learnt was that Lucy tied a knot with her childhood love, Mr. John.

Now that he was rather a successful bachelor, he got many proposals from the “Charming Gender.” He deactivates his “Facebook” account because he was annoyed after getting many friend requests. It made him engrossed into more adventures.

3
With the turn of the new Financial Year, his company involved in more investments to expand its profits and started to invest in petroleum exploration. Mr. Adams was importantly involved in studying the rock formations beneath the earth’s crust that could trap oil. Vibrator Trucks and Geo-phones (machines that send sound waves into the earth’s crust and record its echoes) were stationed in many remote villages and periodic gathering of these data was required.

Like any other time, Mr. Adams went on tour to a village more than 150 kilometers from the city to collect these data. He put up in one remote, but splendid hotel, much like a citadel, overlooking lakes and ancient monuments on the southern side and greenish paddy fields on the eastern flanks. He could see low mountains covered with dark green trees when he opened the windows. Days for him involved going to where they stationed Vibrator Trucks, collected data and heading back towards his hotel room. At night he would stay awake, reading or writing.

On that eventful night, he lay awake, reading on the bed as usual. The time was as late as 1:30 in the morning. It was drizzling but steaming hot and he opened his windows overlooking the paddy fields and gentle breeze flew in softly. The sky was dark, but reflections from the horizons made it partially dark gray. The only sound he could hear was the sound of the rainwater that hits the cemented sill and the humming sound of AC.

Suddenly, a folded paper flew into his room from the opened window and rolled on the floor. Adams was terribly awe stricken. But he was not a man that would submit to fear. He got up from the bed and looked through the window, the opened paddy fields. He could see none, not a soul. He picked up the folded paper and could see something written on it. “Please help me. Please….Please…,”  with  shaky scroll. 

It was natural: he knew that someone was in trouble. It was not a joking act. Who will play such a silly joke in that exasperating weather? He looked through his window again trying to capture any human form, and beneath from a thick bush a shadowed figure walked out and approached his window. It was a woman; drenched white by drizzles and mud, shirt and skirts torn by thorns, and her neck was covered with blood stains. She held the sill of the window, hiding from the projected light of the room and silently begging Adams to let her entered the hotel.

It had happened so surprisingly, so quickly. There was not time to love or hate, or to say yes or no, or to have any second thought. Adams ran to the door and sped through the corridor, opened the main door of the lobby of the hotel with the key that was hung by the door during night time. He silently sneaked by the side of the building reached the outside of his window where she was sitting, sobbing and shivering because of her wet dresses. He held her and took her inside.

He switched off the light of his room and peeked through the window again, beneath the curtains. He could hear furious shouting sounds of men echoing from the mountains and paddy fields, though faint enough, as the sound of the rains was more intense.  He closed his window, switched on one zero bulb so that the light could not be seen from afar. The lady was in a pitiful condition: she was bloodless white. Her feet were swollen with injuries and her back and skins were covered with bruises and mud. Adams took her to the bathroom and gestured her to take a lukewarm shower.

4
ADAMS slowly rose from his seat and pulled out the spare blanket of the hotel and gave it to her, to cover herself.

The hotel clock on the wall struck 3:30 AM. And in less than an hour, dawn was going to come. What is he going to do? He had not slept a wink, but sleep was taken away from him. Sleep can be taken as the synonyms of peace and calmness: there can be no sleep under that appalling clutch of the silent, deprived but beautiful women. He opened the fridge, poured out some milk in a glass and asked her to drink. She unhesitatingly pulled out her hand from the blanket and grabbed the glass and sipped down the milk slowly and intensely. Adams asked her to lie on the sofa and he receded back to the bed.

She acted obediently, every instruction was obeyed. Adams enjoyed that even though the whole situation could turn into something deadly.  She slowly lay down and emptily gazed at the TV: she was still occupied by her pasts and wondered how she could escape alive. She felt much safer now and tried to be positive that Adams would not do anything stupid to let her back in the open.  

The first glare of the morning light penetrated the parting of the curtains, but Adams and Rebecca were still wide awake, listening to the outside sounds and thinking about the strangeness of the situation. They were gripped by a cruel jaw of the expectation of something bad.

After some time, Adams took his first-aid box from his traveling bag (the company always provided the touring staff with this kit) and handed it to her. Rebecca applied the Betadine ointment on her cut wounds and slowly retired back to lie down. Adams thought that those were minor cut wounds and would get healed in no time. He could take her to the nearest clinic during the day and got her treated with the best medicines available. He swore in his heart. He was enthusiastic like a child and was anxiously eager to see her fair skins in the daylight. He would take her to the market and grabbed those clothes and trousers of her choice. His whole thought accumulated around her.

Human beings are generally good, although the world is cursed by the bigotries and atrocities of ideologies and beliefs. We fight wars for the sake of the nation, kinship or peace, but deep down we find ourselves demeaned by brutalities beneath the veneer of the proclaimed “good cause.” In the end, we always sighed saying, “Why can’t we live in peace, like brothers.” Is it the general goodness that creates hatred? Is it the inhuman hatred that circumcised the general goodness in us? But, no matter how the general goodness be trampled, it is always there and echoed eternity. And it easily reached its highest point when one is the only last authority to extend a charity, love and kindness to someone deprived….to someone clad in beauty. And Adams is the last refuge, the last authority on the life or death of that angel, and he automatically bowed to his instinctive goodness.  

“Where are you from, Rebecca?”

“Very far… deep in the jungle beyond those trees,” she replied in a sad voice. “I am very scared….don’t let them catch me again”

“I will not let them harm you…I promise,” Adams said.

“Lomas tribe, they kidnapped me, and they sold me to these people. Oh! I miss my town. I want to go back home”

“Now, Rebecca, tell me everything. Don’t keep me in the dark. I need information so that I can help you”

“It is a long story. Three years ago in our town the LOMAS and the RUALS, they are two different tribes in my hometown, were at war, butchering each other with long knives because of petty reasons. After a year into the war, the reason behind the war, all the killings, was more unclear—it turned into a revenge-war, revenge killings. They killed to avenge their dead parents, sons and daughters. They would abduct, kidnap their prey and then disappeared, leaving no trace. I was in my class XII and even schools were suspended most of the times because of the mutiny. The armies intervened, but there was more killing. After three years of tension, peace was partially restored. The leaders of LOMAS and RUALS held peace talks, signed accords and within a month massive killing subsided. But hatred prevailed within individuals, communities and everyone were intrigued to wage revenge in any way possible, in secrets. But as peace was restored in writing, we breathed a sigh of relief, and schools and colleges were opened again. One day on my way back from school in the afternoon, I was dragged into a van by five strong men. The car sped along the road and I was screaming for help. The last thing I remember was a stuffing of smelly chemical on my nostrils. When I regained my consciousness, I saw myself with other girls, of my age, in a small dingy room, all sobbing, eyes red and swollen. All of us were sulking, expecting the worst with every sound and footsteps of the outside. We were kept there like that, fed, loved and cared and made us their play-toys according to their moods. We were trained to be a kind of machine that could induce satisfaction to men. After a month or two, we were sold to rich people in the city. An order would be placed by these rich people to these pimps and then accordingly we were escorted to hotels or remote houses and we were forced to spend time with them. And then, after a day or two we would be escorted to our secret hideout. It was a week earlier that I planned for this escape. And thank God, you are in this hotel at the right time.”

5
Adams was listening closely, and Rebecca was narrating slowly with teary eyes. The story was so strange to believe it. But true stories are stranger than fictions and Rebecca was there, wounded and crying, bitten by the razor-sharp cruelty of life and men, never to be the same again.

The hotel timekeeper struck 6 AM and the whole outside was in full daylight. Adams peeped through the window curtain, he saw three big men approaching the manager’s room. He warned Rebecca not to make a sound or move.

The main guy (as it appeared) was formidably built with a clear scar on his left cheek. He pulled out his goggles and asked the hotel manager who had just freshen up and switched on the computer, “Hi! Manager Sir, Good morning”. The manager without looking much at them, thinking them to be the usual customers asked, “Same to you, guys. What can I do for you? An early bird catches the worm. Need reservations? You are liable to get the best rooms”. The manager was use of quoting proverbs when he attended customers. The main guy politely bent on the counter desk and said, “We don’t come for reservations exactly. You see…there is a missing lady. Yesterday, in the middle of the night and darkness, she ran away from home and her husband. She is a little bit of a psycho…you know”.

The manager remarked, “Missing lady? Strange enough to happen in this part of the county. I see…it’s a sad tale! Having problems with the husband? Or anything of that sort? Why are you not filing a missing complain at police chowkey?”.
                                                  
The three men felt the extrovert manager talked too much: the main guy was already dreaming of cutting his throat. But they had to keep their cool: politeness was the qualities required to survive their business. They needed to be smooth on the outside.

The main guy, slightly grinding his fingers and jaw gave a painful smile and continued, “Manager Sir, We come here to inquire if there was anything suspicious happening in the night. You see…people saw her running this way.”

Now, the well-learned manager was struck in the groin. He shouted at them, “People saw running this way? Do you think this reputed hotel is such a damned that a depressed lady would just walk-in in the night? Do you think this is a brothel? Now listen and listen clear. Not a soul came this way last night. Don’t try to spoil the reputation of the hotel, and of course…mine with the story of those gossip dealing villagers. My customers are all eminent and reputed people. You leave before I call the police”

The manager was scared a bit, but methodical in his approach. If  rumours spread that a lady from the village walked into the hotel during the night, he was damned. Only words, spreading rumours would be enough to keep his job on the line. Lately newspapers were filled with the plaguing of hotels by call-girls, but his hotel should be an exception. At least not during his tenure. He was expecting a promotion and reputation counts.

“Sorry to bother you. Manager Sir…it is just a search. We don’t want her dead. She is very dear to her husband. If you have any information, please give us a call” The main guy scrolled his mobile number and wrote his name as Pyarelal. The manager thought such a scared face and a lovely  name. He almost smiled, but hid it.

He repeated, “I get no information…Mr. Pyar. And that’s it. Satisfied?”

The three men left completely shattered. They looked around as they boarded the car. They could smell something, but they were totally helpless to prove the smell. Pyarelal thumped the car and whispered, “Rebecca…I will kill you. I will cut your throat.” They left.

6
His hotel phone rang and he picked it up. From the other side of the phone the manager spoke, “Very good morning, Sir. Everything all right? Breakfast is ready? Would you like me to bring to the room or come down yourself in the dinning room?”

“Please send Raju to bring up the breakfast. I am pretty hungry, so double the amount”

“With pleasure, Sir”

After 15 minutes, Raju, the hotel-boy pressed the doorbell. Adams carefully peeped through the door hole and slightly opened the door. The whole room inside was still dark because of the hanging curtains and switched-off lights.

Adams said to Raju, “I got it” and he grabbed the breakfast tray. Raju was surprised. It was his routine to lay the breakfast on the table for customers.

Raju said, “But…Sir…”

“Don’t bother it. Let me serve myself today. And I am not keeping well. Unless I call you or anyone I don’t want any doorbell sounds. Understand?”

Raju bowed, “Yes, sir! Yes Sir! As you wish”. Adams pulled out a 500 rupee note and sealed into his palm. And a prompt “Thank You” followed. Everything went good. In this hotel, the customer is always right as long as you tip them. You always get the best of services. Adams double locked the door again, and set the breakfast items—toasted bread, soup, fried eggs, milk and coffee—on the table and both retired to eating the breakfast. Rebecca was easier now: she knew that the three criminals had left and they would continue to search her in the vicinity. But that did not bother her much. She felt she was safe inside the walls of this hotel room with Adams. All that she needed was to regain her strength. She needed to stay alive, energizes herself and went home. Her misery had taught her things, and she wanted to help victims of that war in all her capacities. What would Adams think of her? A whore, a dirty bitch running into his hotel room and shattering his world? He seemed to be a respectable person, and taking her in would bring contamination to his reputation. But those thoughts were nonsense. She needed to embrace any situation where she could get help. She should not have a mind to think for others except herself. All people in this world are in a situation way better than her’s. She did not have time to show respect, or to plead for forgiveness. She would tell all the truth Adams intended to know, and eat as much to regain her lost strength.

Adams ate a single toasted bread and drank two glasses of coffee, while she kept on munching the fried eggs, soup and tea purposefully.

“So…how do you feel now? Better?”

“Safe! For the first time in my life I feel safe”, she refreshingly smiled.

“How are your wounds now?”

“I think they will be all right in no time. These are minor cuts. And the ointment has really eased them up”, she replied.

The whole conversation was like that between two unknown strangers, abridged by strange coincidence and then attractions.

7
But then wanting to “help and support” the miserable rather than love come easy under coincidence and attractions. At least for Mr. Adams. All that he knew was that he had to rescue her from those crazy pimps. But at the peak of his mind, he wondered: Was that love shown in different forms? Or, was that love already, altogether?

It was 7:30 AM after they finished breakfast. His mind was full with plans. He called up Raju again and instructed him to check around the neighborhood. After 15 minutes he came back with the information that some differently looking men are standing outside the main gate. The spying work was rewarded with another 1000 note, as before.

Now, the heart beats faster. He must take her to safety. That was the responsibility given to him by circumstances. After dressing up they sneaked silently towards the hotel garage.

After 2 minutes, a car came out of the garage. The hotel manager wondered, “Why is Mr. Adams setting out so early? It’s a strange world!”

The car slowly moved out of the main gate, and as expected stopped by the pitiless men. Adams stopped the car. Pyarelal asked him politely, “Where’re you going friend?”

He said, “For work, as usual!”

He asked, “And who is this lady?” Rebecca was largely unrecognizable. She was wearing a pair of black goggles, with white Kameez and a respectable necktie.

Mr. Adams replied with confidence, “She’s my wife.” Beneath the black goggles, tears rolled out with the word. And then it poured out unstoppable. She then pulled up the goggles to wipe them with a skirt. The whole scene, then suddenly turned action packed.

Pyarelal shouted, “That’s Rebecca!” He called out to his men, “She is in the car. Don’t let them escape.”

Adams suddenly sped. Through the rear mirror, he could see three bikes chasing him with the same speed. The road was still empty as it was early. And speed competition was at its peak. The bikers were closing up and one man pulled out a revolver, aiming to shoot at the rear tire. Mr. Adams kicked the brake suddenly and the bike came crashing against the car and rolled down the slope.

Pyarelal stopped his bike. The other biker stopped too. He furiously looked at the “speeding away” car, with one of his most costly assets within it.

8
It was 9:30 AM when Adams and Rebecca reached his rented room. But reaching home could not wipe out the thought of the dreadful encounters they met with on the road. A feeling of maximum insecurity was lingering. Even the luxurious rented room looks gloomy and meaningless. The confusing future course of action urgently needed to be taken saddens it all.

They then went to a market. He purchased a pairs of trousers, shirts, shoes and more for her. It was one of the most memorable times for Rebecca. To come across a stranger who was kind enough as much as he was a stranger seemed like a fairy tale. But it was actually happening.

They then went to an air ticket counter and booked a ticket for the town. At last, she thought, after countless days of miseries, she is going home. The thought of her town came up in her mind as she remembered as a teenager: The peaceful airs that blew and then the sudden air of destruction that separated people: the wars and the killings. Everything appeared clear but sad.

She secretly looked at Adams and wondered at why there was such an unexpected kindness in her cruel world. A kind man with a handsome face is what girls want. And he was! It is every girl’s dream to be in safe hands. She wished he could be with her everywhere, till the end of time. She wished that he, too went to the town with her.

But soon she realized that more wishing only made things more far. Adams silently drove the car, and were already heading towards the airport. When they reached the airport, he parked the car and looked across her and said, “Rebecca, so? Are you okay?”

She said, with a kind of sobbing voice, “Y-Yea! I’m f-f-fine!”

He said, “And this is it. You’re going home. In 30 minutes from now, you will be in your hometown. That’s something…no?”

She cleaned up and said, “That is going to be great. And thank you!” And she really meant the words. The words meant for the happiness she would get in her town. They meant for the sadness she would go through without him.

He took out one of his debit cards from the purse and handed it to her. He said, “The pin number is 8XX0. Money is in here. So you withdraw as much amount you want, whenever you need it. Every month my salary will be credited. Don’t you worry a thing with this card.”  

The parting with someone who was so close yet so far was aching. She kissed him on his right cheek. Tears were shed mutually, but were hidden. Two different worlds could not mingle together physically, and that fact would often drive one to control emotions.

9
When Rebecca reached her town, she at once knew that it was much worse than the worst of her expectations.  It was completely ransacked by the constant war of the tribes. The building walls were destroyed by fires and bullet holes. Markets which were once crowded in peace looked deserted. Many houses were left vacant as the owners had been chased away or killed. She would come across billboards on which were written, “Peace is the lasting solution” “Stop the war” “Where have all the tribes gone” “Wars is exterminating us” “Land valued us, but we don’t,” etc. and etc.

She went down to her old house. It was half burnt and all the household items were stolen. Her father and mother were no more. She then went to the old market. It was gone too. On its spot was a big refugee camp, guarded by armies with big guns. All his acquaintances were enrolled in the camp. She went inside looking for familiar faces. But all her teenage friends ignored her. They whispered, “You remembered Rebecca? The girl who left the town for prostitution?” They did not want to talk to her, or neared her. Some said, “She is having as dreadful disease. Chase her away before she spreads it.”

She went out of the camp towards the closest church. Inside, she saw a group of acquaintances praying. When they see her, all ran out of the church. They said, “Prostitute! She’s dirtying God’s house.” One man approached her and asked, “Are you that Rebecca!?” She said, “Yes! And I’m back!”

He said, “It’s good to see you back. But don’t you ever walk in here again. You know? Your kind of people should not be walking into a religious place.”

She asked, “Then where should I go? This is my home!”

The man was silent and walked away.

10
Exactly one month after Rebecca left him, Adams received a message. “Thank you for using your Debit Card 654XX9800 for withdrawing Rs 10000 from ATM MNC5558886542”

He smiled and said to himself, “Thank God! You are still alive. How I miss you!” And then a month passed and there were no more withdrawals of money. And then a year passed. And then another year. All the buzzing sounds of his mobile message were about something else. Not about the lady from the wild. Not about that beautiful face. Not about that lady of mercy. Not about the girl she missed the most. Not about the girl who might love him the most.

Office works kept piling up. He did more touring. But for the first time in his life, he lost interest in his adventures. Instead, he felt that life was meaningless without the buzzing message sounds of Rebecca, and that silence made him knew how much she loves her. Silence had made the horizons empty, and the whole view had changed.

Two months later, he went to a city for his office project. The hectic daily schedule of the project stressed him out. One night, he hired a taxi and roamed around the city. He viewed from the windows of the taxi the theatres, the restaurants, and then the "round the clock" night clubs.

On the roadside of one night club, he could see one tall, beautiful lady, dressed in scanted clothes, inviting the passengers of the taxis with her familiar smiles and face.

Adams quickly told his driver to take a U-turn. He said to himself in his utmost sadness, “It’s more pleasant turning around than going forward. Even though they both leads to the same destination.”  (To be continued....)